That was the most touching story I have ever read. Best of luck to you in all future aspects of your life, and my sincere wishes that you stay safe over the next month you will be away from us. I will definitely keep you in both heart and mind while you're away! I am so happy you decided to post this.

I have never spoken to you up until I guess this point, but I will be sure to once you're back. Again, good luck Wizard!

*cry*
WHY DID I NEVER GET TO MEET YOU?! ;_;

Man it takes a lot to get my to cry, usually massive physical pain, but after reading this I cried a couple of manly tears.

Wizard, you don't know me, but I still wanted to stop by and let you know that I found your story incredibly touching, and inspirational. It always makes me happy to hear how people have managed to turn their lives around for the better. I don't think I could ever stress how much of an amazing person you are. I wish I could have gotten to know you better, hopefully there'll be plenty of time for that in the future.

Stay strong man, and thanks for sharing this with us.

Though this is the first time I've heard of you, I look forward to your return.

>>2484746
I listened to this too. Damn those Japanese. I know not what they sing, but damn they put emotion and feeling into what they sing.

Hate it when you can't type what you want without it sounding wrong, aha. Regardless, I hope to see you again soon.

Peace, bruh.

....Thank you all for your kind words.....*is starting to have another happy breakdown...*

I love you all.......and to those I don't know, thank you, I'm so happy you took the time to read this.....I really am.........I will try to meet you all when I come back....

I'm too modest for my own good.....but so many have said that I'm awesome, that I think for once.....I'll take it.....thanks everyone....

To my friends, thank you for this journey ......I will see all again, someday....

For now though, I have to go to bed.......I don't care if this gets archived or not....as most of my friends have posted and have seen this.....it's all I ever wanted and more.....more than 40 unique users have posted.......and for that.....I thank you all again, I never expected this much.......

Thank you all.........see you soon.........

>>2484791
I don't think I ever got the chance to meet you, althtough I think I've seen you in a couple threads. I really can't find the words to say, other than I'm glad you've passed through the fire, and I hope the best for you.

wizard, i don't think i've ever actually talked with you (i hardly post here in the first place), but i'll be looking forward to when you come back.

your story gave a good start to my day.

i hope things go well for you friend, and thanks for posting your story. <3

>>2484791

I love you dude, be safe.

I am sorry for all the horrible things you have been though, but I am so glad you discovered us in time, and I am so glad that you are feeling better now.

I haven't met you before, but I feel close to you just from reading this story.

This truly is the best community on the internet. We all look forward to your return.

I don't know you but you sound like an awesome guy Kenneth. I'm glad you can feel happy for once..

>>2484758
>mfw i read this

>>2484758
>mfw i read this

>>2484799
>>2484800
holy fucking shit

This show.
This freaking show. These freaking bronies.

I love you guys so much.

>>2484732
I never get tired of hearing how this wonderful show has saved/changed lives. I'm elated that you are happy and decided to live. Live life to the fullest! I love you, brony! I'm glad you told us everything. I don't know if I've met you before, but I think I've seen you in threads. I look forward to seeing you in a month! We'll be waiting.
>>2484791
I'm late to the thread, but I'll hug you anyway. *hugs Wizard*

This community and this show is an endless source of inspiration for me. I'm so glad you decided to stick it through Wizard. It always warms my heart to see people with your kind of background beat the odds and succeed.

To all you guys who posted after I left, thank you for taking the time to read this, and I hope that my story may help more people out as time goes on...

I'm back for about a week due to circumstances I can't control.......I don't like going back on my word....but it's nice being back, even if it means it adds an entire week to true hiatus... I'll be in the "How is everypony" thread like I usually am. So if you want to talk to me, that's where I'll be. ^_^

......and thank you mods for archiving this......it really made my day when I found out...

Thanks...

To all of you, I must thank again, the day has come again and this time everything is set...

My friends came to me in my darkest hours...
They helped pick up the pieces...
And allowed me to finally be me...
I can not comprehend how much I have impacted their lives, especially the ones I've helped so much...
Nor can they comprehend the impact they've made on mine...
But that wasn't enough for them, no...
They allowed me to be more than just me...
They allowed me to shine...
My friends now call me great, awesome, and amazing...
These things I can not yet accept of myself...for my past still haunts me, but will fade away with time...
I'll never lose my modesty though, no, that is a part of who I am...
Thank you, everypony...

~PSP: I'm glad that you and whoever else may have helped you, came up with the "How is Everypony" thread, without it, I honestly don't know if I'd be here right now. Because if I didn't have you guys to fall back on that night and making you guys my friends, I don't think I would've made it past the next few days...I was still in a dark place those days after....thanks my friend. ^_^

I would love to say more, but I must really go now, it's for real.........see you soon........I'll miss you all very much...I'll stay in contact with those I can...

>>2493947

Well, I wrote this the last time.

>But there's still the bright ray of future promise here that makes it better, which is that you'll be coming back.

>I'll be awaiting your return.

It is still just as applicable. I hope you have as good a month as you possibly can and see you when you come back, friend!

>>2493947
I'll miss you Wizard. Thanks for helping me through my darkest hour with synchtube. :)

>>2493947
Bye Wizard, see you soon. We'll be waiting.

>>2493947
I love you man, youre an amazing person and i will be eagerly anticipating your return :(

I love you man and I think you're an amazing person and will do just great out there. I eagerly anticipate your return and will be here when you get back to greet you just as warmly as the first time. <3 I love you

Hey Wizard Mac here, so upon your recommendation on synchtube tonight I ran over to /arch/ to look this thread up and even though it's 3 in the morning I'm going to reply. First off you were right. This made me cry. A lot. You and so many other people here consistently amaze me with their stories. You guys go through so much and still try to shift the subject to thanking us. You are the purest kind of person there is and I agree that everypony on this site is amazing. This community as a whole is amazing; and I can't even express how glad I am that I found it. And I know I haven't talked to you much, but if you ever need any sort of help I'd be glad to email you. Once again you rock, your post rocks, and this entire community rocks. (hopefully this doesn't have a billion typos, did on my IPod)
Love you bro

>Mo aghaidh nuair
I would say something like, "You get 1000000 interwebs" but it wouldn't show one iota of respect I have for you.
You sir, are a living conduit of greatness.

Well, I'm officially back as I can get! Only was able to leave for about 8 days, then ended up coming back....it's just so hard to leave this place. lol

Again, I am so touched by how great this fandom really is...

Ever since this fandom, I'm ever changing and always getting better. I'll use this post to reflect. I'll post more after this post. And, I'll try to comment on every single post in this thread, it will take awhile, but it will be worth it. ^_^

>>2493947
You are not modest, no, you were only afraid of your past and had very little confidence in yourself. You still hated yourself, as you still associated with the old you... You know now that you are as far from who you use to be as you can get, there's no longer any reason to hate yourself as you love who you are now. Confidence, a word you could never associate with yourself. That is now far from the truth, you have so much more confidence in yourself/what you do and guess who helped you out with this? Yes, most of your friends allowed you to see just how great a person you really are, though, you'll never allow it to get to your head. You've even asked a few of them to yell at you if you somehow do get a big ego. lol You now can accept full well who you are and the great things your friends call you, it feels so great to be able to finally do that...

Oh, and btw....you're Bi, you always have been and you've never really been able to see it. Don't be ashamed of it, it's better to know that you are instead of not knowing or not accepting it.

You never imagined to become the person who you are now, never imagined to have this many great friends, and never imagined to like a show about ponies. lol

The fact of the matter is (and this sounds SO corny, but it fits so well):

Friendship IS Magic. ^_^

You wouldn't be here today without any of them.

Thank you, everypony, who has been there for me. Either in the past few days or the very day I posted my suicide attempt admission post. I wouldn't be the person before you today if it wasn't for you all. ^_^ Thanks. Much love to you all!

>>2504079
Okay Wizard, I just read this whole thread. And there's really nothing I can say that hasn't been said.
Your story reminds me of my own, except you have the fortitude to talk about it and get better.
Yeah. Nothing to add. Have a picture of RD saluting your greatness.

I find this here in the archives and read this... Tears swelled up in my eyes and some rolled down my cheek... I'm glad that you have recovered from some degree from your past! Know that no matter what happens, we will be here with open arms and ready to listen! Friends support each other through the thick and thin, the brutal and saddening... Live on and enjoy life. We stand up for what we believe and leave nopony behind! So stand tall and live life! It's here to enjoy :)

Wizard,

The first time I can recall talking to you is when you showed everypony your PMV in the HAY thread. I clicked the link, honestly thinking that it would be just another one of those generic ‘clip shows with music attatched’ but when I heard that song… It blew me away. The song fit the scene so well it surprised me! That was quite a shock, and I must say you are really good at making PMVs from what I’ve seen so far!

I remember the night you added me as a friend on Steam. It was quite the surprise, as I posted my account name quite a while beforehand. A little nervous, I decided to try talking to you, and got to know you a little bit that night. You posted me a link to this thread at some point during our conversation, and I gave your story a quick skimming. Feeling pretty tired, I decided to save reading it for the next morning.

When I did read it the next day, I didn't know you all too well. I read it in its entirety, but it didn't really hit me at the time just how much you have been through throughout your life. I told you that morning that I was happy for you, and I meant it, but at the same time I didn't really put much thought into it beyond that.

Over the days I got to know you a bit better through chatting with you in the HAY thread and messing around in your Synchtube, being silly by impersonating famous people and confusing everypony at times. Even though I missed many a movie night, the ones that I did make were a blast and I enjoyed every minute of chatting it up on the Saturdays and Sundays I was there.

After a while, through Steam chatting, messing around in your Synchtube, and even Facebook messaging, I got to know you even better as a person. I recently began to realize that the story I read that morning had completely slipped from my mind. I barely gave it much thought, and for that I am truly sorry.

I decided today to re-read your story, and this time I took it to heart. Reading about your life made me realize just how important of a place Ponychan is, not just to you and me but to many others. It really is something special when you find a place that you can confide in others, even if that place happens to be on the internet.

It saddens me terribly to know just how much you have went through in your 21 year life. Nopony should have to go through what you have gone through. But you are still here today, and that is what really matters most. I really want you to know that if anything happens to you in the future, I’ll try my very best to be there for you. Seeing you a few nights ago made me realize just how hard everything has been for you. It really hit me then that I hadn’t given your story much thought beforehand.

You are a great friend, and I trust you a lot. More than most people on this website in fact. Re-reading your story, I felt myself putting much more thought into who you are as a person, and how this community has helped you tremendously. You helped me feel welcomed in this community, and along with many others in HAY I can truly call you my friend.

And on that note, I must congratulate you for making it this far on the journey that is your life. For many people, if they were in your shoes, they wouldn’t have made it this far. I know just from this that you are a very strong and courageous individual. I definitely cannot say the same about myself!

I’m going to finish this message on a positive note. Every day, I hop on to ponychan knowing all too well how much time this place can waste. But at the same time, all of the experiences and conversations make this not time wasted, but time fully enjoyed. You were one of the many bronies who have made this a wonderful place to “waste” my time at!

Wishing all the best for you,

MG_Salad

I just read this. And I just cried. Honestly, I really did. I know I haven't done you for a long while, hell barely even two weeks, but you're one of the people on Ponychan I remember the most, because of your constantly helpful demeanor. You were one of the first people to welcome me to Ponychan too, and for that, I'm grateful.
No-one should have to go through what you went through. But you did, and you made it through the toughest time of your life, and I'm really, really proud of you. I just want to go over there and give you a great big hug.
You are a great guy, and I'm sure you'll get through what ever life throws at you.

We'll miss you, be back soon, alright? C:

>>2484732
http://www.ponychan.net/chan/arch/res/2484732.html

After re-reading your story, I am almost speechless. Fitting since I'm not much with words anyway. All I can say is that there were tears in my eyes and that I'm glad I read this a second time.

You are a wonderful person, and I'm glad to call you my friend. ^_^

>>2484735
Thank you Indy. ^_^

>>2484736
Thanks Cookie. ^_^
>hugs

>>2484738
Thank you Fachi. I'll say this once again, you are one of three people that may have possibly saved my life. I didn't include this into my story, but...I did contemplate suicide again the morning I woke up to see all of your guys' comments... without yours, PSP's, and Snowy's comments, I may not be here today. Thank you, again.
I'm sorry that your advice goes unnoticed, I mean...you give out better advice than I do...
Please stay safe. I love ya man!

>>2484739
Thank you Drake. ^_^
I wish you still came by, but I can talk to you whenever on Steam.

>>2484740
Thanks Vin. ^_^

>>2484741
Raven/Tali, thanks. ^_^ I want to say this here and now, where it'll be archived for you to see.... you're a better man than me, at least in real life. Yes, I have helped out countless others online, but you actually volunteer in real life, something I don't think I'd be able to bring myself to do.
You have way more potential than you realize. I know you sometimes feel out of place in the HAY thread because you don't feel you're good enough at helping others out or getting to know us. However, that doesn't make you any less of a person, you are you and something you may not know, a lot of people have told me that they see you as a really cool person and would like to get to know you better. ^_^

>>2484742
Thank you Bacon. You know, that story you told me about your aunt really touched me...
Thanks for telling me, I think I'll be able to take my Grandmother's future death better when it happens because of you. ^_^

>>2484743
Thanks Roogster, and for the most part, they have. ^_^

>>2484744
Thank you Merri. You and I really don't talk much anymore, which is a shame. However, we both are currently having problems that really don't allow us to do so...
I really hope that you and Dear turn out great and that it lasts as long as it can! You both love each other dearly. ^_^

>>2484745
Thank you Character! You know, even back then, when you and I weren't best friends as we are now, you posting with your Ⓐ actually meant a whole lot to me, as little as what you did was. It meant a lot to me that you cared enough to actually post under your name and not under anonymity.
You know, this post I believe demonstrates how far you have come. I know that if you re-wrote it today, it would look so different.

You're always talking with me, you're always there for me, and you're the most trustworthy person I've ever met. If I had to give an Element of Harmony to you, it would undoubtedly be "Loyalty" AND "Honesty". Thank you very much my best friend! =]

>>2484746
Thank you Unending. ^_^
...that was a touching song...

>>2484747
Thank you Koke. ^_^
....I'm so glad that even back then...I had such an impact....thank you my friend...

>>2484748
Thanks Tex. ^_^

>>2484750
>>2484753
You know Ponny, I don't know if you actually read this or not, but that doesn't matter. You're a great friend whether you know it or not. Thank you so much to being a friend to everypony in the HAY thread. ^_^
>hugs

>>2484755
Thank you Maxtion. ^_^ I want you to know, again, you can talk with me anytime I'm on. I love how funny you can get. XD If I had to give an Element of Harmony to you, it would be "Laughter".

>>2484756
........................I have to be honest here, your post, this post.....made me cry so much and is the one that had the most impact out of all the ones in this thread..... I'm crying as I'm typing this response out...
Thank you so much Painter Brushtail...thanks...

>>2484757
Shimmer...we've both become really busy as of late have we? lol I'm glad though that Zeke made that other chan as it allows me to talk with you more. You're the first person I ever looked up to in this fandom, or really ever to be honest. It's odd to say that a 21 year old looked up to a seventeen year old, but I did. I still somewhat do. You're an amazing person Shimmer, never forget that.

And you're welcome, I couldn't allow a great person such as yourself go without help, whether or not you allowed me to. I was bound and determined to be somepony who could actually help you for once. I'll never ask you about why suicide is hard for you. Why? Because I know how hard it is to talk about those sorts of things, you'll tell me if you want to tell me. If you never end up telling me, I'd be fine with that.
Again, you're welcome, thanks, and I love ya too man!!!

>>2484758
Heh, irony that you posted RIGHT after Shimmer, how you both say that you're the same person (but with some obvious differences, or at least ones that I can see). Thanks Star. ^_^ I haven't seen that trip in ages. XD
It's sorry to hear though that your dad won the internet battle...

>>2484759
Thank you Omm. ^_^ Well, you've gotten to know me now!

>>2484760
Thank you Cloud. ^_^ You know, we don't talk much, but the fact that I've made such an impact on you, speaks volumes. You're the only one who even thought to make an email effort for me when I was not myself and down. Again....you cannot comprehend how happy that effort made me, you really can't. I still can't put into words how happy it made me....
Thanks...
I'd give you the Element of Harmony, "Generosity" for what you did for me with the email effort. ^_^

>>2484762
Thanks KirbySamus. ^_^

>>2484763
Mary.......you need to know this. I wouldn't have been able to make this thread even happen without you. I was going to make this story much, MUCH shorter if it wasn't for you needing to hear the full scope of it. I'm happy that I stopped you from becoming who I use to be.....I couldn't bear to watch as somepony wanted to go where I use to be...
I do not hate you for what you did to another friend. I was disappointed as you know better. I am not anymore though, you need to realize this. I'm telling the honest truth. I don't know why you can't see this...

>>2484764
>>2484765
I think of you as a friend too, and I showed that to you in that massive post where I listed about 73 of my friends. ^_^ It was nice meeting you too and that was a funny day. XD Thanks, and I hope you come by sometimes. ^_^

>>2484766
Thank you Japko. ^_^ I'm so glad though that you were able to get over your own problems. Yes, I do remember that.

>>2484768
Thanks. ^_^

>>2484769
Thanks Oswald. ^_^

>>2484770
Thanks. ^_^

>>2484775
Thanks. ^_^

>>2484776
Thanks PSP. ^_^ I'll say this again, you're the most optimistic person I have ever met. Also, as I said to Fachi, you're one of three people that may have saved my life that day when you commented on my goodnight post. Thanks. ^_^
Without you, none of this would have happened.... thanks....
I'd give you the Element of Harmony, "Magic".

>>2484777
Thanks Snowy. ^_^ As I said to Fachi and PSP, you're one of the three people who may have saved my life that day when I posted in the HAY thread with my goodnight post, thanks. Love ya too!

>>2484779
Thanks Blackhawk. ^_^ You use to mainly lurk, but I'm glad that you post more often.
I just want you to know this, accept who you are and you'll be able to feel more comfortable in your own skin.

>>2484780
Thank you Hipster, without you, this wouldn't have ever been /arch/ed, thanks. ^_^

>>2484781
Thanks Soarin. ^_^

>>2484782
Thanks Shirts, and I hope you one day get better yourself. ^_^

>>2484783
Thanks Rare, I hope that you can overcome your current obstacles. ^_^

>>2484784
Thanks Panda. ^_^ I hope that you start posting in the HAY again more!

>>2484785
Thanks Sam, and thanks for helping out Fluttersie as you have. ^_^

>>2484786
Thanks Scoffee. ^_^

>>Image is of my first Ponychan post before I broke through that 'wall' and it.....has my suicide attempt admission post...

*Cont.*

>>2484787
Aww...you ended up meeting me!

>>2484788
^_^ Thanks.

>>2484789
Thanks, and I'm glad you've ended up posting in the HAY a bit. ^_^

>>2484790
Thanks. ^_^

>>2484791
It DID get /arch/ed, and you're very happy for it. ^_^

>>2484792
Thanks!

>>2484793
Thanks!

>>2484795
Thanks and yes, it is, even if it is in decline right now, it still is. ^_^

>>2484796
Thanks!

>>2486175
^_^

>>2486190
Thanks!
>hugs

>>2486598
Thanks!

>>2493952
You're welcome. ^_^

>>2493957
Thanks Twi, and I love ya too!

>>2497330
Thanks Mac, love ya too!

>>2502766
Thanks.

>>2504083
Thanks Zom! I hope you get better with time.

>>2504336
Thanks! ^_^

>>2508545
Thank you very much my friend!

And please talk with me on Steam/Facebook when you feel like it, you're not intruding. ^_^ I love talking with my friends, regardless of how many I'm talking with.

>>2509412
Thanks! It means a lot to me that in that little amount of time....you could already tell what kind of person I was....thanks...

>>2509421
I've been back silly. lol

>>2509428
Thanks and so am I to you!


Thank you everypony, really, this means so much to me. I'm always going to say thanks for being there as a friend to me, no matter how much it sounds like I'm a broken record. I do still have problems accepting full well who I am and it brings me to tears when somepony tells me how great I really am... I am modest and humble, I won't ever have an ego, or at least a big head...

To everypony who has read this that hasn't posted, from Twist, Heart, Shadyle, Cheese, and etc (there's a lot of them), I'm glad that you at least read this in its entirety, thank you... that's all I wanted, was it to be read and for you to understand what I've been through and why I act the way I do...

Without this place, I have no doubt I'd be dead or worse (my friends know what I'm talking about...)... how morbid that is to say...

I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

I know that Ponychan is in a decline in attitude, however, we're still good at two things, the main things that really count. Having friends that care that would be there for them through and through. And, to help out anypony who is down to the best of our ability. To those who believe that the "pony" magic is gone, well, it is in a way. But the magic will never be fully gone for us who have made friends here that will be with us for the rest of our lives.

I have no doubt, that I'll be talking, in contact, and possibly even meet some of my friends one day, for a long while in my life.

To finish my Element of Harmony thing that I've given to my friends.....VINES, you ARE who I believe I'd give the Element of "Kindness". ^_^ That, is what I believe my friend, I know you could make a counter argument, but I haven't seen anything else from you but kindness. ^_^

And, please don't feel down my friends if I didn't give you an EoH, I'm being as honest as I can be, and I hope you agree with who I gave mine to. It is a gift to those I believe need to hear those things.

I can never thank this community and my friends enough. Thank you. I am so touched by everything my friends have done for me....
>hugs everypony

>>Image is of that HAY thread post...

See you around Wizard

>>2510438
I've been back for about 2-3 months. lol

Me leaving is a thing of the past.

I'll probably have a mod edit my first post.

>>2510436
>irony that you posted that right after Shimmer
HOLY F--

YOU'RE RIGHT!!

Also,

>>2510445
How's this for ancient tripcodes? I'm pretty sure I haven't used it since April.

>>2510446
Well, except for nostalgia threads.

>To those who believe that the "pony" magic is gone, well, it is in a way.
It's just sleeping.

>>2510445
XD

>>2510446
I've only been actively on Ponychan since early May, so I didn't see that one.

>>2510447
Hm... maybe I do remember you using it once before... not sure...

>>2510449
That's why I said "in a way". Meaning, as it stands right now, it is for the most part gone, however, doesn't mean it can't come back.

For me though, there is a new kind of magic, and ironically it is the subtitle of the series. XD

No words, Wizard. No words...

Wizard my life hasn't been nearly as traumatic as yours, but I know exactly what you mean about a wall. I use my own wall to hide how I feel about anything. I try and laugh off everything and be that funny guy that you can't hurt and its gotten me no where. Now no one can take me seriously because no matter what kind of emotion I really feel, I'm trapped to make a joke and be Mr. Comedian. My only regret in life was making the decision to devote my life towards making people smile because no matter how hard I try there always has to be a punchline. This community(which I just started naming myself on) is an escape for me. I don't have to be funny just to live up to my reputation anymore. I can be the real me and have people accept that

Squideey has shed a manly tear.

I'm... actually surprised that somepony bumped this... thank you.

>>2513000
Thank you, for taking the time to read it.
I hope you have a great day. ^_^

>>2513001
Yeah, it's very similar. You can make other people happy/smile without being the joke-ster. I mean, I can't tell you how many people I've helped and made happy during the many months I've been here.

You can be who you want to be. If Mr Comedian isn't you, then don't be that guy. Want to be happy? Try to be yourself. I can tell you, I've been the happiest I've ever been in my life since taking off that mask/wall.

I'm glad though that you do have an outlet to be yourself. ^_^
Thanks for reading it!

>>2513033
I hope that they were good ones. ^_^
Have a great day!
Thanks for reading it!

I'm proud of you Wizard. This makes me ever more proud to be a part of this great community.

I dont know you, but I wish to know you.
I feel alone all the time ( currently overseas. IE pilot), and like you, the show and this community made me feel something I hadnt felt for 23 years: welcomed, loved... at home.
Kudos, and I hope to see more of you around here!